Today is one of those days where I am filled with doubts and worries. I am not sure where it is coming from but this comes and goes. It happens and how we respond to it matters. If I was my old self, I would most likely push this aside and ignore it, but since I am more connected to my higher self, I tend not to escape the thought. I need to know what I am being reminded of and what I need to engage in.

I meditated today with that question. Why do I feel like lacking in so many things and what do I need to do to get past this? I turned to my higher self and my spirit guides to bring me clarity on what is needed for me to be assured instead. Then pulled two cards:

I came to me, I wasn't really lacking. I am just failing to see what is there. I forget to see how much abundant my life is right now. It isn't where I am hoping to be but I am blessed beyond what I can imagine. My doubts and fears is reminding me to look to the present and not be anxious of the future. I have the resources that I need right now and I am getting the support I needed whenever I needed it. Manifestation is an innate power that I sometimes take for granted because I live so much in fear.

This is what I am trying to transform about myself, to get off survival mode and stop living in fear. I was successful doing this a lot of times but when things don't go my way, I tend to go on default mode. Grounding myself and seeking sanctuary from my essential oils helped me a lot to interrupt and reprogram this pattern. I am grateful that I have these.

So when you are in despair, turn to God or whatever you believe in to have a higher power beyond yourself. Get your energy from the source, in my case, Mother Earth, the Universe and the Angels. How we perceive the external world we are living in depends on our mindset. So cultivate your ability to filter thoughts that are fear-based, and fill it with thoughts of love and belief. We are all abundant, it is just how we see our life as it is. We all have the power to manifest the life that we want, we just have to start changing how we think and feel about our present situation. Surrounding yourself with high energy would help change your internal vibe.

If you are going through so much right now, it is OK to feel scared and worried. However, do not let fear dictate how you live your life and how you make your decisions. When you live in fear, you often miss out on opportunities that come your way. Instead, trust that God has opened new opportunities for you, it is just waiting for you to find it. If you are living in fear, it would be hard for you to see the small signs and messages that is coming to you to help you get off that situation. So trust and believe that it will get better and try to see what this experience is teaching you right now.